Things I wish other people Knew about me

I wish people knew how much of a voice I really have. How even though I act goofy sometimes I still know how to take something serious. Sometimes I may say the wrong thing doesnt mean Im dumb. It means I can now learn from it and get even more understanding about a situation. This is probably in my head to be honest because people probably don’t look that deep into the situation. I think I do hyper focus on it though because I have had situations where I said something and felt like I looked dumb. I think that Is because I do realize That people listen and I want to know that when I speak people get something out of it. When I speak I want to be able to really grab someone and make a change . Whatever I do I want people to look and say what makes her different. I want people to see that I can be a leader and I can have that bold voice. When Im writting I can always go back and look and fix what I messed up on. So it brings a sense of calmness where I can say what I want to say boldly without messing up. When I speak out loud theres room to mess up. I believe that when im alone In my room I feel im very smart and I have a deep understanding for a lot of things but I think the world makes me feel silent like I dont understand. People make me feel like I should be quite. I feel the breathing on the back of my neck Like they are intentually waiting for me to mess up. I feel everyone around me is just living day by day and that scares me. I dont see why People wouldn’t want to do something differnt to make a change and maybe thats becasue of what I wrote maybe everyone is scared just like me. I know I am but I also know when I see someone who truly needs help all that fear goes away. I stop thinking about my fear and I start thinking about alll the possible ways to help them. I think me and everyone else can sometimes get caught up with being a leader In the spot light. Its like we forget why we started to become a leader in the first place. Its like it becomes show to the world and not so much of really helping people. So I think I want people to know I have a bold voice and im willing to help people and im also willing to be real with them.