Nobody gets me

Everyone will say you will always have a choice. At a certain point that’s true. On the other hand though its not your choice. You ever feel like in the middle of the storm you are trying to make a decision but everyone’s voice is around you ? If your like me they will tell you something like that’s why your to much of a people pleaser, or you should just ignore those voice’s. How am I suppose to do that though when those same voices take’s away my future my dreams and just my choices in reality. I would like to take back my own voice and make my own decisions. These voice’s have a major impact on me and maybe that makes me weak. One thing I do know is that I am smart enough to recognize how this effects me. I just want to drown myself in the music I’m tired. I will make a choice and someone will say something to take that choice away. Maybe I am not okay and I do worry about other people’s voices. They say be free and live out your dreams and than you tell them your dreams and they say how is that possible ? As soon as you try to dive deep into it and you hit one bump oh no that’s not possible. Like isn’t life suppose to be messy and challenging isn’t that why the dream is so filling once you achieve it. Than they ask why wont you tell me what’s on your mind ? Why would I so you can pick it apart ? Tell me how its stupid because you don’t understand ? I say forget that if you have a dream or even a little goal don’t tell people it if you know they wont understand. I personally wouldn’t tell you to believe in yourself because we all let our self’s down. In the grand scheme of thing’s I would say put your dreams and hope’s in God. You may not be a Christian and that’s okay because there is still room for you to grow as well and Jesus is right here with open arms. No matter how much you have sin God say’s in the bible that not only me not only you but all of us is chosen by God. He is the only one who is really there through anything you are doing or going through. So today or whatever day you want I encourage you to just allow Jesus to move in your life. You don’t have to feel pressure to read the bible everyday or turn it into whatever us Christians turn it into. Lets take are Christianity to how it was like when we was little kids Jesus loves you and it’s that simple just accept it and the rest will fall into place. Last thing Don’t turn to those voices turn to prayer and to God. Yall have a bless day.