Song of Hope

What a beautiful verse in the bible I mean for real !!!! It is so important for us to follow God and to carry our own cross. What exactly does it mean to carry your own cross though? Well lets look at Jesus how he carried the cross all the way up the mountain. He knew the whole time he was going to die for all of our sins. He knew exactly what he was fighting for. To him it didn’t matter how hard or painful it was to carry that cross. In his mind He loved us so much it didn’t matter. He knew this was not his home. He was willing to Sacrifice himself for us. So for us to carry our own cross we need to be able to sacrifice worldly things in our life for God. Just how the bible verse says deny yourself, that’s hard to do. I think naturally we all tend to just go with our own instinct. God doesn’t want that for us though he wants us to trust and follow him and the only way to do that is to deny yourself. Meaning all those worldly sins should be turned away from. It may make you the odd ball but that’s good because the world will tell you you’re a weirdo and a freak; but God will tell you “you’re the salt of this earth” (Mathew 4: 13). Which means you are doing Gods work that’s why you stand apart. So to carry your own cross would mean that We stay strong in our faith with Christ and even when things get hard in this world; we continue to keep walking by faith and keep going. We must know in the back of our minds that this world is not our home. Our home is up in Heaven with God and we are not promised that we wont have struggles on this earth. We are promised that with our faith and belief in Jesus Christ we will have eternal life in Heaven with him. “For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life” (John 3:16). So I encourage you to pick up your cross and be God’s strong warrior even when things get hard. You keep pushing and stay strong in your faith and belief. Be that example for other Christians !!!!

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” fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by name, you are mine.”

Ask yourself How does ” I have called you by name, you are mine” Impact you today ? For me that gives me so much comfort Obviously we are all human and we all struggle with sin But thankfully God sent his only son to die on the cross for our sins. Even though I know that. For some reason I struggle to forgive Myself and to Believe that God still loves me unconditionally and he has already chosen me. This quote makes me feel empowered; makes me feel worthy. This quote makes me want to get back up and try again. Its almost like a parent, even if you lose they still say they love you and they still support you. I love how this really shows how precious and valuable each one of us is to God. I know we all struggle with sin and guilt I know I do, it feels like its just breathing right on the back of my neck. But this bible verse just cures all of that. In the beginning of the verse it literally says “fear not, for I have redeemed you”: So why do I still fear? Why do I still fear that I am failing God? I shouldn’t because he already Knows I am not perfect and he’s already redeemed me and He has already called me by name. That’s exactly why this bible verse Is so important because just that single bible verse alone can help with SOOO much. It really shows you how precious and loved by God you really are. Reminding you that its ok just wake up everyday and try your best for the Lord; because sometimes that’s all we can do. Just rejoice in the fact that God has called us by name and he already loves us unconditionally. We all have a path God has panned for us. I am still trying to figure out my own but its ok; because I know that with God I will find my way. He has already called me by my name.

I wish people knew how much of a voice I really have. How even though I act goofy sometimes I still know how to take something serious. Sometimes I may say the wrong thing doesnt mean Im dumb. It means I can now learn from it and get even more understanding about a situation. This is probably in my head to be honest because people probably don’t look that deep into the situation. I think I do hyper focus on it though because I have had situations where I said something and felt like I looked dumb. I think that Is because I do realize That people listen and I want to know that when I speak people get something out of it. When I speak I want to be able to really grab someone and make a change . Whatever I do I want people to look and say what makes her different. I want people to see that I can be a leader and I can have that bold voice. When Im writting I can always go back and look and fix what I messed up on. So it brings a sense of calmness where I can say what I want to say boldly without messing up. When I speak out loud theres room to mess up. I believe that when im alone In my room I feel im very smart and I have a deep understanding for a lot of things but I think the world makes me feel silent like I dont understand. People make me feel like I should be quite. I feel the breathing on the back of my neck Like they are intentually waiting for me to mess up. I feel everyone around me is just living day by day and that scares me. I dont see why People wouldn’t want to do something differnt to make a change and maybe thats becasue of what I wrote maybe everyone is scared just like me. I know I am but I also know when I see someone who truly needs help all that fear goes away. I stop thinking about my fear and I start thinking about alll the possible ways to help them. I think me and everyone else can sometimes get caught up with being a leader In the spot light. Its like we forget why we started to become a leader in the first place. Its like it becomes show to the world and not so much of really helping people. So I think I want people to know I have a bold voice and im willing to help people and im also willing to be real with them.

Romans 12:12- Rejoicing in hope; patient in tribulation; continuing instant in prayer;

I’ve been struggling lately. I feel far from God. We all feel that way at some point of our life though don’t we. I know I am right now. I’ve done some things that I shouldn’t have done and I feel ashamed and that God is now far from me because of it. God is still here though he still gots me. I’ve turn away from that sin and I have asked for forgiveness. God forgives me.I believe that now it is just a matter of my faith in him. And me being willing to spend time with him everyday to grow closer to him and days I don’t feel him doesn’t mean he’s not there. I want to get back into my Bible daily I struggle with it because right now I feel distant from God because of my sin I haven’t been spending time with him. He has been there the whole time though. And I feel that now I need to do what this verse says “Rejoicing in hope; patient in tribulation; continuing instant in prayer;” Just because God is making me be patient right now doesn’t mean he’s not there. I should be happy in this tribulation and to continue to pray and read the Bible as much as I can. Because God has got it handled and he’s got a plain. I just need to be patient and be faithful in him and stay consistent.

Wanting to live

To wanting to die

Wanting to run as far as I can

To wanting to be trapped in my room

Felling all the blues

Not caring what to do

would I rather die

Should I try

Why is dying easy

And living is hard

Is it the people around me

Or is it really just me

I’m putting on my loud ass beats

Not caring what anyone thinks

So am I a selfish person

Am I just a angry person

Or maybe I’m just a broken person

Maybe it really is just me

So they say

Hey y’all today I went on a walk with my dog outside it was so nice but I still didn’t reach my goal of steps on my watch I mean that is really hard to actually do I got 12,134 my goal was 15,000 though but it’s ok I’ve been cutting weight for wrestling so I think it will be Ight. But anyway I had a good time walking my dog it’s good for the soul. But you know while I was walking alone with my dog and even after my workout with some friends I stayed a little longer to cut some more weight. I realized I really am ok alone and I’m kinda happy that way I just need a car and a license I’m gonna be working on that though after school which is only like two weeks thank the lord school is so tiring and just ugh. I don’t like how they give you all these test and all this crap because honestly I know I’m smart and the only reason why I don’t do as good on those is because I am not 100% intersects or focused and everyone knows that I mean come on😒 but anyway I’m sometimes happy alone and you should be to well anyways night y’all have a blessed night.

Today was a good day I got to get my rewards for wrestling today which was really awesome my momma fixed my hair supper pretty and it made me so happy. She’s been going through a lot with Brandon recently ( her boyfriend ) He’s basically just being dumb. I wish he would just stop and get over himself but I guess it doesnt work that easy. I did have to see my ex when I got my rewards though which totally sucked but we was looking so good so it don’t even matter. Anyway God is making me a path in my life so I don’t have to worry about those people in my past because that’s simply it. They are just from my past. And you know ? I’m happy where I am in life now. I mean I’m slowly learning to love myself and to be at peace with myself and God. And I think that’s a huge accomplishment because I really don’t think most 17 year Olds know how to love themselves and definitely don’t know how to live without having to have a boyfriend or some dude. But I’m thankful for where I am in my life today and I want to continue to grow spiritually, mentally, and even physically with me being a wrestler and going to the gym. I weigh like 123 and I have to be at 117 next weekend which means. Next week is going to be all cutting weight and it’s gonna suck. But hey life of a wrestler am I right. I’ll be going to Virginia Beach though so I would say it’s worth it plus it’s mat time. Which is always good for a wrestler. I can’t wait I know God will be by my side working in the background making big things happen like he always does. Anyway that’s all I came on here to say. Yall have a blessed day love yall and love you to God. Yall go do something you love to make u happy !!!!

Yall I did something brave today I talked to a really good looking guy. I mean I was bold ok maybe not as bold as I’m telling you but I did go up there.  Anyway if I wasn’t so busy with my own life. I might just date him but that’s kinda what I like about him. I mean he seems like a really busy guy to focused on his dreams but he’s also supper fit and I’m fit from the gym because I actually am a wrestler I won women’s States 114 that’s the only hint you get bc if I tell you my name well you can look me up and find out who I really am and I want yall just to get to know me as a person. But anyway I have puppy love 😍😋 So if you see a guy supper cute or anything you like about him then just go up and talk to him I mean why not. You only live once and plus what If that changes your whole life. Be brave talk to new people it’s good for you!!!!! Bye bye have a blessed day

Hello my people today has been a blessed day but that’s everyday. I don’t have much to talk about but I will say this one simple thing. I LOVE YOU GUYS 💗 I hope yall have a blessed day!!!!